Fashion House????

Oh no. I was thinking I would be the only one to keep the Star World ratings going. I wondered if I was committing a huge mistake. I wondered if I was the only jobless desperate woman who had the time to tune into this serial called "Fashion House". Oh my god!!! Every night, after getting my baby to bed, I would quickly run up to my little entertainment centre to watch the "much-awaited by me" Fashion House. Am still wondering why I watch this. Yeah I know one reason why. Its for all the hot men and the no-plot story. Actually the reason why the hot men or women appear in a particular soap is for the viewers to forget about the plot and just ogle at the people, err..not actors.

Just when I was grieving about my wow-so cool night life and the shax how jobless state of mind, my friend...Rams writes that she does the same thing too!!!

Yipppeeee...I have company now. Am not the only one!!! Yeyeyeye...I have people committing the same crime!!! AWESOME!!!

Am bored and am tired...

And am very serious about this. I have this intensive craving to leave my profession astray and run away from this cubicle. I have been facing this crisis for a little over a fortnight now. Its strange. Its weird. The job that I so loved to do about a couple of months ago, now seems very distant. I am unable to relate to it. Every morning I feel this pain in my feet and am unable to move to get to work. My mind stops functioning in a positive way and I have these urges to run away from office. I come into office, check my emails randomly, and thats it. Thats all I do and thats all I want to do. Ugghhhh...I hate this feeling. I feel like a school child aged 5, which cries every morning to get to school. I'd rather quit my job and sit at home, than spend aweful days at work.

Yeah, I have decided to quit active full time work. I am not sure what I would want to do henceforth, but I want to give every possible profession a try. Why not? If something pleases my heart and soul, why not? To start with, I plan to apply for a job in a few local NGOs. I plan to teach school children. I plan to pursue a career in anchoring or do voice overs. This will also give me the perfect chance to start planning my dream restaurant.

Its rather strange. Strange because it is important for me to work, because of the constant paycheck. A lot of commitments depend on my income and I cannot afford to let that go so easily. I seriously cannot afford it. But still I want to leave my job, which pays my bills.

Am stuck. Am stuck in this never-ending whirlpool. Its where I cannot for sure realise my dreams being broke. Its where I don't wish to do this job, yet have to because of the monies.

I feel sick...

A reality check, this very second.

Its a normal day. He wakes up before her, opens the door for the maid, gets back to bed. She wakes up, fixes her morning cuppa hot filter kaapi. Reads through the newspapers. Whats new in it? Its the same old crappy news that she is not interested in. Nevertheless makes an effort to be worldly wise. She has this craving to read the HT City first, but strongly says no. Thats not news. Business and Politics comes first. parties later. He walks into the room. Give me HT City. What? She askes. Reads the regular news first. Then go to the soft porn section. Anyway, she hands him teh supplement. Fixes another cuppa filter kaapi. Asks him if he wanted one. But he decides to have nimbu paani instead. She doesn't seem bothered. She finishes drinking her kaapi, reads the paper, goes to the bedroom, opens her cupboard, takes 3 sets of clothes, takes a minute to decide what she wanted to wear. Feeling a little irritated and bored, she picks out the not-so-interesting outfit. Goes for a quick shower. He gets up after drinking nimbu paani. Goes to his cupboard and pick out a formal grey suit and a bright yellow tie. Bangs the bathroom door. "Am getting late. Come out quickly". He yells. And also talks this in his mind...Gosh how long does she take in the shower. Doesn't she understand its a working day? She comes out all the more irritated.

Puts on her shoes, and says...Happy Anniversary hubby dear!