Oh lets try

I did something that I have never tried ever before. I had this craving for gulab jamuns out of the blue!! Weird but true. Anyway, here's how I did this. May be you can try too... Instead of a sugar syrap, try a condensing a litre of milk and sugar. Add a few pinches of ground cardamom and some saffron. Now add the fried gulab jamuns into it. Let it soak in milk for a bit!!! Oh for all those kids whohate milk..this recipe is super cool. I tried giving my baby some..oh and she looooved it!!!

Creative me...

Coming to think of it...

...I should have remained the way I was 3 years ago
...I should have emptied all the pages on my passport by now, and reapplied for a fresh one
...I should have enrolled for the Vodafone Marathon some 2 months ago
...I should have remained single
...I shouldn't have eaten that butter chicken last night, considering it was soup night
...I should have finished "How Starbucks saved my life" and started the next book
...I should have climbed Mt. Everest by now
...I should have learnt the art of taking things easily
...I should have gone on a roman holiday
...I should have made amma happy by getting pregnant again
...I shouldn't have had such silly misunderstandings with people who matter
...I should have a pug again
...I should go on that African safari
...I should sell my golden Jimmy Choo on ebay
...I should have written a novel by now
...I should have started a dramatics institute
...I should have spent my time more wisely the last few years
...I shouldn't have done this and that
...I should drink lotsa water and eat lotsa fruits
...I should never procrastinate but sadly I do all the time
...I should have given everyone and everything a second chance
...I should have read all the books and papers I had in my mini library by now
...I should have waxed yesterday
...I should spend more time not writing such frivolous stuff!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A matter of destiny, a matter of emptiness

She has always been thinking, why does a break-up or the lack of one feel so difficult? A lack of one because there is no clarity whether she could call the recent fiasco a break-up or just a misunderstanding. She told a friend the other day that she was confused. But who knew that she was silently speaking to herself looking into the mirror about what went wrong and why things were this way when they were not meant to be. "I am sorry, I shouldn't have asked you all those commitment related questions", she says tearfully. She secretly wishes her voice be heard in her lover's apartment. She secretly hopes that he would call her one day or gives her that surprise she has always been waiting for.

Is the lack of personal space the issue? Is the misunderstanding from a recent travel the issue? Infidelity? Immaturity? Or what is it? She fails to understand. She has always been immature in handling certain topics, but thats how she is, and he knew that. Then why all of a sudden this lull? She recently had this long talk with him about certain issues she had in her head. And all that she thought was cleared with one phone call. She knew that this was all he could offer to her at that point in time. Yet she wanted to know what the future held for them. It sounds silly now but it was important for her to know.

Well, whatever the reason is, she still doesn't know why there has suddenly been this 'no-communication' phase. It is painful, it is sort of an emptiness she is feeling now. And she doesn't know why.

May be its destiny, she concludes. But she still patiently waits for him to call. May be she wants the answer. Or may be she wants that one concluding call.