Yes, its true. However, most people wouldn't like me saying this. Or wouldn't accept it to be the truth. May be because they've seen me in the best of spirit and being a good sport all the time. But I wanted more. I wanted more time to myself. I wanted more time to get along with my whims and fancies. I wanted to be more "ME". Yes, I wanted Freedom. And lots of it. My mother might probably disapprove. She tells me all the time...cherish what you have. You don't have to go looking for anything else. You have to maintain and calm yourself and be one of the world. Yeah yeah...all crap, I say. I cannot live like you mom. I need everything. At the same time.
Fortunately, B & T went outta town for 4 days. I've been craving to have this kinda break for a long time, where I could sleep whenever I wanted, wake up in the middle of a lazy afternoon, and party to my heart's content. I did just that. I dropped B & T at the airport and then let myself loose. I had made m\no plans, just let my life unfold. It was just nice. It was peaceful. I did most of the stuff I wanted to do. I watched movies, six of them in one go. I had lazy mornings, lazy afternoons, and overall a lazy unplanned weekend. Which was totally awesome.
Now they are back. B is traveling again. And I am left with shit loads of work in office and an equally crazy schedule at home! All you moms out there, sorry for being so rude...but well...I wish I could get my freedom back. I wish I could roam around a freewilly, trying not to plan anything. I love them both, but there is always a but. I want more time for myself.
3 comments:
Babe...slow down. U r stressing out wayyyyy too much. Breathe in, breathe out! :-) BTW, do u know that B is on orkut and added me as friend?
I know how you feel and I don't even have a kid!! Nice post.
awwww...i can understand...sometimes we all want to let our lives loose and let the feeling of freedom overtake u...am glad u had a few dyas off for yourself!
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